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new gold ribbons for gold shoes; lots of new potions that smell of sweets and spices; collecting lovely recipes; collecting secrets from my spell book; putting hundreds of white carnations into glasses for grandma; paper bears and deers and unicorns running around my bedroom, keeping me awake; rubbing mint and lavender between fingertips; your looming egyptian scent; mama's red velvet cake drifting around the house; quartz; nebulas; everlasting rainfall